I have spent months essentially not submitting anything new... not wanting to... not sure if I 'really' wanted to... maybe even years at this point, kinda blocked, and depressed. Doing, going through things almost just because ''I had to'', almost only by habits, that sort of things.
Then, something really bad happened to me last year... last September... I don't think it made things 'a lot worst', but it shifted some of my views about the world in general, about life, about... the worth of things... in a more, how to put it, 'apathetic' direction.
But, very recently, something changed... Just a bit, not much, but I do think it 'changed'.
It will seem weird, I would even say 'ridiculous' myself, but after I was involved in restoring an ancient Minecraft server map of mine (more details here : nova225.deviantart.com/art/Min…
)... The person who helped do the conversion made a 'Reddit' about it, where I read a lot about people's general love-appreciation-and knowledge of it and of the Nostalgia of old Minecraft... and then someone made a video about the whole affair, something interesting and nostalgic.
I don't really know why, but seeing people being interested by all this, some old thing that once held value to me... apparently still has great value, more than I thought it had to me at least, and more than I thought it could have had to others as well... It made me 'interested'. Caring enough to 'want' to do something new. Interested enough to go and post some new things... to see my last additions to my gallery... To really, completely, 'finish' filling them, add a proper song to them, add a few choice words. To face and finally pay my last respects to what... who I had lost.
Right now life isn't the greatest all in all, not much changed, but a little 'something' still did change, or more exactly made me want to change and make things, which is more than I have been able to say for the longest time. And all (or mostly) because I saw others being able to be interested in something of the past that I liked.
Life is a strange thing.